women power?gal power?are same for me..

Britney Spears is still great and i really like her..

she is really creative singer and daring!!

i still like her and she still number one!!!

womanizer is one of her lates song and its top of the chart!!

OMG!!!i like that song..


in group...i really like Pussycat Dolls..

also daring....and gorgeous gals..

damn cute and the songs also nice..

i really like when i grow up!!!!!!!

the song is something is wrote for me!!(hehehe)


its about a power!!!!i like it..

why you look at me?

anything wrong here?

that guy is weird..

he keep looking at me?

i dont know why?

but obviously he is looking at me..

or i just 'perasaan'?

what ever!!

but i hate if the handsome guy look at me..

coz i hate hadsome guy coz their think their great!!!

what the hack???

just cant figure it out why??

because im ugly?

or im not pretty like other gal?

haloo...so what?and its not a big deal for me!!!!

just go to hell!!!!

i hate that!!!!

plz dont do this!!!

pesta penang

hehe..my first time my dad let me go out in night in 6 dec 2008.me and my friend goes to pesta at sungai nibong,and i very excited coz i didnt meet them for long time,so i wait my friend(mieza) so we together goes to another friend house(zaira)then she already there and we wait another friend(ina)...ina was late,we wait for her almost one hour!!!while we waiting,me, meiza n zaira where chating,coz didnt meet for 3 month like that..so many changes i can see...my friend zaira already engage,n meiza was futher her study in degree,but the weird thing i feel like a stupid...im not goin to work,just stay at home.....my life like nothing...its very boring life!!if i have laptop its ok for me..but sometime my sis bring to KL..that make me like a useless fellow!!huhauhu..the ina came....we go there my motor,and havy jam there...no wonder its a saturday...and so many outside people come there...just feel like im not in penang for a while....but i really enjoy dat day..
im goin home at 12.45 am..my first time i go back very late..coz tomorrow i raya haji lor.!!!!

my convocation day!!!

hahaha..my big day today!!!i cant wait and i was really excited about that..but early in the

morning that some stupid neighbor was parking the damn car and our car was stuck inside!

what the hack!i was really angry,and we took my relative car to go to my convocation..

when i reach there i quickly get out from car and say goodbye to my parents and my sis...i saw so

many students there..but i really careless that day i forgot to bring my coupon!!!i call my sister

but she didn't answer my call!!!i hate that!!!!!!i call again then she answer....luckily their still in

UIA area..then i go get my coupon...then i feel ok then we line up and enter the hall.when i enter

the hall i feel like OMG I'm in hall now..feel nervous so my friends,i study away from my family

and i face so many problems without them,and its really hard for me.but when i think about my

past its really challenging and its a good lesson for me..

Then our college invite PUAN PAHANG or PERMISURI PAHANG(queen pahang),but the funny

thing is they put the wrong song first..i cant take it i just laugh at that time but luckily my place

was almost last but not last..why they do the technical problem?its funny actually..lol

then its the time to go and grab the scroll..i cant wait but im very nervous...coz very one look at

the person who on the stage!!!thats make me very nervous...then i try to make cool and pretend

that im okey...heheh but just like dreaming the when i grab the scroll...OMG i do it!!!

the my parents was waiting outside and the and we start take picture....to keep as

memory..huhu..i took pic with my friends,and their parents..im very happy that day..



I MADE IT!!!

rehearsal day at iium 21 nov 2008

i think maybe this day will be fine too,coz i goin to meet my friends,almost one year we didn't meet but still contact each others,so i was so happy that day,me and my parents also my sister(mahsa student) with me,we stay at our relative house in segambut,only take 20 minute to reach gombak,i saw so many student there,i think there are my junior...the i saw one girl driving perdana black colour,then i think i knew her!!oh my gosh my friend Almas,she just finished study degree in UK now she continued study in IIUM for Master,she same age with me 22,but she is a genius,i huge her coz i miss her miss her much,also my other friend siti also lidia..oh my GOD i really miss my study time..then i saw my other friend too(i was really friendly in college so i know so many student,not famous but talkative)she is reen,einna and azie.everyone tell me that i lost weight,and look different..i very happy !!!then i saw my ex-housemate tpot she same as before but she was shock when she saw me,she just blank!!!blur and speechless,kak maddy she shout!!the came the time we have to enter the hall,then i saw mira(that i fight before)she also ok with me and i really miss her....then i say nad she still maintain like before,the kakti sarah,so many....

everything goes fine,but that day i was really tired coz the rehearsal we have to wear the robe and take picture....but the weird thing is so many friend of mine cant recognize me...ofcoz 1 year we didnt meet..and so many changes..but that day was really afraid for the real convocation day...i cant wait that i gonna grab the scroll!!!!

collecting the robe for the convocation in 20 nov 2008

its was a terrible day in my life..i just move from Penang at 4.30 am and reach KL in 10 am,and we we goes to my college somewhere in batu caves,its a half gov n private.so i think everthing will be fine but i was mistaken when i forgot to bring my resit that i pay for the convocation last year but they didnt keep my info that i pay ready..but the hack is i was fighting with them for the stupid payment.i was really upset that my college have a bad system.my mood that day down n feel like really stupid.but thank GOD that my parents was there with me,we meet the Head of Finance dept,and he was really kind and very good,but he didnt realise that he have a stupid and idiot staff outside there.the dont now how to talk with student,but when they saw my parents very thing change,they treat us very well,huh! what the F*** I really dont want to say the F word,that my dad scold me why i fight with them,but i didnt start first!!put the blame on me?like a hell!!



but i was thanks to the head of finance,if he didnt help me,i cant graduate.thanks again for helping me.

one in the million..she is my frend

Whatever people wanna talk about me..
I don’t care about it..
This is my self
What you guys will do when ur frend back biting about u?
Feel angry? Or just wanna tell that halo plaz la..be straight forword..
Hehe..but my story this time is little bit different.
Coz I have my frend was back biting about me..but I don’t care what people talk about me..
I don’t care and don’t even whan to know about it..
But maybe not for longer ..maybe will start fighting and be ok again..
But this time my house mate when I was In college time in KL..
I know everthing that they talk about me..maybe as usual will start fight again
But she still my frend, my weakness is I love my frend very much..
I have a frend from first until now she with me..
She is the one really take care n understand about me,
She like my mirror, I can share my problem with her,she make me think like a mature gal
I really wanna thanks to he..but I really need her in my life coz she is the one really nice and coolest gal ever I saw.
She is open minded, charming, funny, happy go luck ,cute, very nice gal..
Her name is noor hashifah from shah alam selangor.
She is one in the million and I proud to be her frend..
Forever and ever..thankz my frend..miss u laa..

fall in love again

hei..
im in love again
but this time he is an indian guy from india..he is very cute.
before this he is fatty,but now he become more cute n hansome..
i really fall with him..
his voice also so cute
he is totally diffrent from other guy
i just cant imagin,i fall in love with this guy?
oh my gosh..i really cant belive it..
its happening to me again..
huaaa..
but he is an actor.
ha..that make me feel down..coz im not preety.
but he still in my mind..i am start dreaming..
dreaming about him.
his look killing me..
huaa...
help me..

my favorite colour..

i like pink very much..
coz pink is soft colour and nice to see..
pink is sweet colour..
i like pink seen when i was in standart five(11 years)
my baju raya also in pink colour but this year no..
i have lot of my stuff in pink colour..
im not crazy..jz like pink very much..
but at the same time i like black..
black is cool colour..
black is beauty..
black is my second fav colour
my third fav colour is green
green is good for eyes..
green is cooling colour
my third fav colour is chocolate..
not so many people like chocolate colour but still sweet colour.
hehe...but still have my favorite colour..there r 7 colour in my life
red,white n blue..

bachelor of accounting

hehe..im not taking BAC..but helping my sister-in-law to do slide show about distance study,she taking a course in Open University..i think this is good idea to futher study,because before she get married with my big brother,her dream to futher study,but now she get..heh..finally she get what she want..

her notes

boring..

so boring la stay at house..
why???
my life as a looser who stay at home.!!!

My Raya story

This Raya also like other Raya day (Muslim celebrates after fasting in Ramadan) we have to stay at home while waiting for the guess, I feel very bored and bored until I sleep for a long nap huuuaa I feel really bored, only my sister came to my house, then my cousin came at 7pm like that and at night we went to my big brother house near my house its take 10 minute to get there, every year same thing happened. My other brother goes to his mother-in-law house, me and my sister only stay. In that moment I feel like ‘laaaaa’. second raya my mother sisters was an indian family,coz my mom was indian convert to muslim,so they came and take lunch at my house,second raya i feel like more happening then first raya,3rd raya day,my family and i going to hang up out side from house..now i feel more better then stay at house watching tv....my sister is going back to KL this sunday,and it might be bored when she not around..i will miss her madness and also little bit of crazy,she like to talk so much..this raya also im celebrates as a single girl without BF..huhuhu..just kidding laa..this is my raya story..

my sister

i have a very diffrent and really friendly sister,she is very nice and kind.sometime she also a sensetive person,we are not like others sister,coz we have a diffrent character also face cut.she is x-ray student and im a business student.

my love story

Everyone out there,have their own love story,it might be end with 'happy ending' or 'sad ending' ,
but most of them are 'happy ending'.But for me is a sad ending,because i just a simple girl who come from penang and study in KL,everything was fine at first moment and frankly, i tell that I'm not the type that easily fall in love because for me, love is need commitment,understanding,trust,caring, and it naturally come(like someone make your heart beat going faster,hehe=]) yeah maybe something like that..but most of people now day are not like that.if the guy have money its OK for them..but im not like that kind of gurl..i don't care if the guy is not from rich family its not going to make me happy with the money,if the guy loves me so much its really precious for me.But my man(ops),is a weird Arabic guy who came to Malaysia to study.My first meet was very funny,i still remember its like Nov 2006 in my hostel(mutiara sentul condo) in the lif,the weird thing is he is a Muslim but wearing a short pants with Muslim hat(for the Muslim guy only)..what the hack is that!!!i telling to my friend in Malay language because i think that he cant understand what im talking...but i was wrong!!!he can understand!!!a very shameful moment in my life.From that day i never talk in malay in front of Arabic students who stay there.Everything was fine and they became my friends,we just a friend i didn't realize that i start fall in love with him.In collage also i have lot of boy friends(just friend) but him make my heart bit going more faster,when i saw him i just freak out..i don't know why???until my friend say that..'hei gal,i think u in love with that guy'..i said,'no its a impossible thing'..and i didn't believe it,until one day,that guy asked me out..OMG... is this a date????i have no idea..but i ask my friend to follow with me,and i ask him a permission to bring my friend , and the guy say..'no,only u and me'..oh God..and i think maybe this guy also fall in love with me.before we go out,accidentally that guy saw me with other guy(my friend's fiancee) just chatting only..and he misunderstood about the relationship..what the hack!!!i msg him as usual coz this guy was a alcoholic..and i was afraid he will do a studip things.
But i was wrong..he call me with anger and say bad word like f word i just cant take it and the final thing he tell me,that i want to cut our relationship(what the English is that he using) and that's is my love story end..its not a sad actually but very very sad ending for me and until now i have little bit phobia in love,and its sound crazy,but its a true one.i have the hard time to forget the past..but I'm trying to..maybe i will find the best one in my life like everyone need(i mean girls)..MR PERFECT..I WILL WAIT FOR U MR PERFECT...

DyLaZaRa story(Bahasa Malaysia)

DyLaZaRa bukan nama utk seorg tapi adalah gabungan nama Dy(maddy)La(eila)Za(izzati)Ra(mira) adalah empat org kwn yg mana memang rapat,sehingga tidur satu bantal,makan satu pinggan,begitu hebat persahabatan kami,saya(maddy)pada mulanya semuanya okei je,memang tak ada rahsiah antara kami,entah kena mata setan mana,kami gaduh sehingga sekarang.Kalau fikirkan balik memang kelakar pulak,saya rindukan kwn sye,apa nak buat diorg inga sye ne yg jahat,buat mulut(gosip) kat semua,nak katakan saya pon tak tau apa2 pon.mulanya macam ne.

kami mmg rapat sgt,sehingga satu hari,kami terserempak dgn warden lama kami di hostel,dia bgtau kata ada student dari arab nak masuk,so mmg kami tak terfikir pon benda tu yg akan menyebabkan kami gaduh.Izzati dr kelantan mukanya cute mcm anak mami and perangainya comel kadang2 suka menyakat saya smpi sye bengang,Eila seorg gadis yg cantik and sopan santun malah bijak dia org perak ,Mira seorg anak mami or mix dgn pakistan dan indian muslim yg gila2 gak tubleh masuk dgn perangai aku,dia org johor,mukanya cantik ala2 minah arab pon ada..hehe last aku le(maddy)budak penang yg slamba(aku indian mix dgn north indian tp org png nampk aku mmg mamak pure),even muka aku paling tak cun dlm geng DyLaZaRa ne,tp aku lah yg paling gila2 and paling nakal and paling setan dari semua,tapi aku ada limit gak klu nak wat apa2 pon,and for ur info,semua kwn aku t dah berpunya tp eila baru putus dgn boyfrend lama dia,dia couple paling lama,sama sia from 2 lagi hebat,mera pulak dah bertunang dgn pilihan family dia,tp mmg pilihan yg betul2 hebat.izzati plk mmg dah ada BF pon,so dlm geng ne aku and eila la single,hehe..aku ne mmg suka bg semangat kat kwn aku,sbb aku mmg sayang diorg mcm adik2,aku tak nak diaorg buat salah.klu nak ikutkan mmg banyak nak cerita,tp pendekan....so hidup kami ne mcm biasala,pergi mana pon berempat,buat bising pin berempat,pi kolej pon berempat,mmg aky rasa kena mata setan ne.sehinggal hari tu,student arab dah pindah masuk ke hostel kami(bukanya hostel tp kondo),so kami mula2 buat jual mahal,buat tak tau je,mira,eila dan izzati dok satu rumah,aku je rumah lain,mmg suka menumpang rumah diog,so jiran batu diorg pak arab,tak boleh bleh..satu hari tu saya dgn izzati saja ja dok speaking english kat balcony rumah dia,then tepi tu mmg kami tak tau ada org ke tak,so kami pon dok ckap la,pak arab tu pon menyampuk..mulanya mmg terkejut pon,tak sangka la,buah cempedak jdk nangka(ayat lama dowh),dari itula kami jdk kwn,masa tu mira balik kmpung and eila tgh tido,aku punya phone pon baru je ilang(siapa amik mmg mati kutu la bodo betul).so lepas mira blik dr kmpung,kami bgtaula kami dah kwn dgn pak arab,tak lah sombong or gatal(selalunya pak arab mcm tu).so aku pon kenalkan kwn aku ne kat diorg,mulanya ok je,tp lama2 baru tau,mmg gatal pon.fuuh nasib baik aku tak cantik atau putih,klu tak mmg parah dok situ,so org arab kat situ pakat2 dok minat kat mira?(coz muka mcm ninah arab)then baru dpt tau dr kwn aku fiefie(also pak arab tp baik tak tipu punya)dia bgtau kata bdk2 arab yg dok sini smua tak bleh pakai,sbb nak benda lain(i mean..phm2 la sendiri)then aku mmg ada minat dgn sorg mamat pak arab ne,klu nak tau bacalah my love story,malas nak citer kat sini..dia pon sama gak.nasib baik aku tak sempat nak kuar dgn dia,sbb dia nmpk aku dgn mira punya tunang,mira ada kat situ tp dok ckap phone dgn dealer laptop.huhu..tp izzati mmg tak suka dgn pak arab ne dari mulanya,dia pon ada bgtau kat saya,so just listen je,tp aku pon rasa salah gak sbb aku yg bg kwn aku,eila kwn dgn awahd(pak arab)and mira dgn aziz tp diorg kwn biasa je,so saya pon salah gak dlm hal ne,coz sye suka lepak dgn kwn lama sye shifa.tak byk time sye spend dgn diorg smpi diorg bengang ckap'kami dok tunggu hg tp hg tak mai pon'..dgr2 tu mmg rasa bersalah sgt..semua ne berpunca dr aku rupanya..tp mmg aku ada tak puas hati dgn kwn aku skit(nama tak yah la bgtau)tp aku ada mintak maaf kat diorg,lepas tu izzati ckap nak bubarkan geng kami,ne semua sbb aku je??heheh setan betul aku ne..so aku pon setuju,sbb aku ada benda lain tp tak elak bgtau kat sini,lgpun amanah..

Tp peliknya,aku kena extand sbb aku gagal 2 subject,aku kena ulang blik,subject mengira(accounting and investment)so time tu kwn aku smua dah last sem,nak ikutkan aku je extand,aku dok umah kwn lama aku,shifa kat tingkat 9,mase tu lagi parah,aku ada dgr dari pak gard,ckp bukan2 pasal kwn aku(mira n eila),so aku mcm tak layan la..aku pergi jmpa diorg,mase tu diorg ada lagi kat kL.diorg bgtau kata pak gard tu ckap bukan2 pasal aku..hu?giler ke apa??mmg bengang dibuatnya....lps tu pak arab pulak ckap bkn2 lagi,aku malas la dgr,klu tgk dgn mata aku bru percaya,so smpi la kwn aku tu smpai kena halau umah n tak ada umah nak duduk,time tu plk aku balik kampung.aku tak tau langsung...........smpai kwn aku(bdk junior)bgtau..something la..mcm tu la gaduhnya..smpai skrg...smpi parents mira nak jmpa aku,kata aku buat mulut..aku mmg tak suka la nak buat mulut..entah babi mn ckap aku yg kena..mmg mrh aku,sampai kwn baik aku(mira)nak tikam aku...........dia org smpi serang aku..aku btau yg benar..mmg salah faham,mse tu fiza ada kat situ..dia terus bgtau shifa(kwn lama yg baik smpi skrg)shifa mmg bengang,tepot lg satu..suka sgt sound org..heheh..bdk umah baru tu lain skit perangai.tp baik.....klu aku dpt jmpa mira n eila skrg aku nak sgt mintak maaf and aku tak nak gaduh2 da dgn diorg lagi.sbb diorg still kwn aku...tp mira dah mintak maaf dgn aku da..aku pon sama...eila je blom..izzati dgn aku tak gaduh,dia dgn aku gaduh okei balik..persahabatan kami setakat itu je..i still miss u all guys...DyLaZaRa

my childhood friend..

my childhood time..its diffrent story coz i not a cute gal like others gal..
coz im fat..and that makes no body like me..
but i still have friend in my tadika..
then in stadart one..
i have my best frend name nurain bt saiful ahmad..
she is really a good and kind,
her family also very nice people,her father always talk tamil with me..but her father is malay,he is really good in tamil.she is the one who always with me,she not like my other friend she is totally a diffrent gal..she is cute and genius,and also a good frend..i miss her a lot..
but one day,she and her famliy transfer to KL..erm in my standart six that time is UPSR time but i still can study with her coz she move after UPSR exam...until now i dont know her where she live..i hope that i can see her again..coz she was my really good frend in my childhood time.
i really wanna thanks to her coz friend with people like me in that time no body like me its because im fat n not cute.its 11 year left ready..but still didnt find her..

i miss her very much..

my life as a..

My life as a loser..i just hate that..coz i always a loser even in relationship.But now im not..coz i just start thinking im the winner and i have everthing in my life..i just love it,I wont give up,im strong and the best..now i realize that yes im right....our mind control everthing and be strong.

But now just a beginning for everthing..