my love story

Everyone out there,have their own love story,it might be end with 'happy ending' or 'sad ending' ,
but most of them are 'happy ending'.But for me is a sad ending,because i just a simple girl who come from penang and study in KL,everything was fine at first moment and frankly, i tell that I'm not the type that easily fall in love because for me, love is need commitment,understanding,trust,caring, and it naturally come(like someone make your heart beat going faster,hehe=]) yeah maybe something like that..but most of people now day are not like that.if the guy have money its OK for them..but im not like that kind of gurl..i don't care if the guy is not from rich family its not going to make me happy with the money,if the guy loves me so much its really precious for me.But my man(ops),is a weird Arabic guy who came to Malaysia to study.My first meet was very funny,i still remember its like Nov 2006 in my hostel(mutiara sentul condo) in the lif,the weird thing is he is a Muslim but wearing a short pants with Muslim hat(for the Muslim guy only)..what the hack is that!!!i telling to my friend in Malay language because i think that he cant understand what im talking...but i was wrong!!!he can understand!!!a very shameful moment in my life.From that day i never talk in malay in front of Arabic students who stay there.Everything was fine and they became my friends,we just a friend i didn't realize that i start fall in love with him.In collage also i have lot of boy friends(just friend) but him make my heart bit going more faster,when i saw him i just freak out..i don't know why???until my friend say that..'hei gal,i think u in love with that guy'..i said,'no its a impossible thing'..and i didn't believe it,until one day,that guy asked me out..OMG... is this a date????i have no idea..but i ask my friend to follow with me,and i ask him a permission to bring my friend , and the guy say..'no,only u and me'..oh God..and i think maybe this guy also fall in love with me.before we go out,accidentally that guy saw me with other guy(my friend's fiancee) just chatting only..and he misunderstood about the relationship..what the hack!!!i msg him as usual coz this guy was a alcoholic..and i was afraid he will do a studip things.
But i was wrong..he call me with anger and say bad word like f word i just cant take it and the final thing he tell me,that i want to cut our relationship(what the English is that he using) and that's is my love story end..its not a sad actually but very very sad ending for me and until now i have little bit phobia in love,and its sound crazy,but its a true one.i have the hard time to forget the past..but I'm trying to..maybe i will find the best one in my life like everyone need(i mean girls)..MR PERFECT..I WILL WAIT FOR U MR PERFECT...

DyLaZaRa story(Bahasa Malaysia)

DyLaZaRa bukan nama utk seorg tapi adalah gabungan nama Dy(maddy)La(eila)Za(izzati)Ra(mira) adalah empat org kwn yg mana memang rapat,sehingga tidur satu bantal,makan satu pinggan,begitu hebat persahabatan kami,saya(maddy)pada mulanya semuanya okei je,memang tak ada rahsiah antara kami,entah kena mata setan mana,kami gaduh sehingga sekarang.Kalau fikirkan balik memang kelakar pulak,saya rindukan kwn sye,apa nak buat diorg inga sye ne yg jahat,buat mulut(gosip) kat semua,nak katakan saya pon tak tau apa2 pon.mulanya macam ne.

kami mmg rapat sgt,sehingga satu hari,kami terserempak dgn warden lama kami di hostel,dia bgtau kata ada student dari arab nak masuk,so mmg kami tak terfikir pon benda tu yg akan menyebabkan kami gaduh.Izzati dr kelantan mukanya cute mcm anak mami and perangainya comel kadang2 suka menyakat saya smpi sye bengang,Eila seorg gadis yg cantik and sopan santun malah bijak dia org perak ,Mira seorg anak mami or mix dgn pakistan dan indian muslim yg gila2 gak tubleh masuk dgn perangai aku,dia org johor,mukanya cantik ala2 minah arab pon ada..hehe last aku le(maddy)budak penang yg slamba(aku indian mix dgn north indian tp org png nampk aku mmg mamak pure),even muka aku paling tak cun dlm geng DyLaZaRa ne,tp aku lah yg paling gila2 and paling nakal and paling setan dari semua,tapi aku ada limit gak klu nak wat apa2 pon,and for ur info,semua kwn aku t dah berpunya tp eila baru putus dgn boyfrend lama dia,dia couple paling lama,sama sia from 2 lagi hebat,mera pulak dah bertunang dgn pilihan family dia,tp mmg pilihan yg betul2 hebat.izzati plk mmg dah ada BF pon,so dlm geng ne aku and eila la single,hehe..aku ne mmg suka bg semangat kat kwn aku,sbb aku mmg sayang diorg mcm adik2,aku tak nak diaorg buat salah.klu nak ikutkan mmg banyak nak cerita,tp pendekan....so hidup kami ne mcm biasala,pergi mana pon berempat,buat bising pin berempat,pi kolej pon berempat,mmg aky rasa kena mata setan ne.sehinggal hari tu,student arab dah pindah masuk ke hostel kami(bukanya hostel tp kondo),so kami mula2 buat jual mahal,buat tak tau je,mira,eila dan izzati dok satu rumah,aku je rumah lain,mmg suka menumpang rumah diog,so jiran batu diorg pak arab,tak boleh bleh..satu hari tu saya dgn izzati saja ja dok speaking english kat balcony rumah dia,then tepi tu mmg kami tak tau ada org ke tak,so kami pon dok ckap la,pak arab tu pon menyampuk..mulanya mmg terkejut pon,tak sangka la,buah cempedak jdk nangka(ayat lama dowh),dari itula kami jdk kwn,masa tu mira balik kmpung and eila tgh tido,aku punya phone pon baru je ilang(siapa amik mmg mati kutu la bodo betul).so lepas mira blik dr kmpung,kami bgtaula kami dah kwn dgn pak arab,tak lah sombong or gatal(selalunya pak arab mcm tu).so aku pon kenalkan kwn aku ne kat diorg,mulanya ok je,tp lama2 baru tau,mmg gatal pon.fuuh nasib baik aku tak cantik atau putih,klu tak mmg parah dok situ,so org arab kat situ pakat2 dok minat kat mira?(coz muka mcm ninah arab)then baru dpt tau dr kwn aku fiefie(also pak arab tp baik tak tipu punya)dia bgtau kata bdk2 arab yg dok sini smua tak bleh pakai,sbb nak benda lain(i mean..phm2 la sendiri)then aku mmg ada minat dgn sorg mamat pak arab ne,klu nak tau bacalah my love story,malas nak citer kat sini..dia pon sama gak.nasib baik aku tak sempat nak kuar dgn dia,sbb dia nmpk aku dgn mira punya tunang,mira ada kat situ tp dok ckap phone dgn dealer laptop.huhu..tp izzati mmg tak suka dgn pak arab ne dari mulanya,dia pon ada bgtau kat saya,so just listen je,tp aku pon rasa salah gak sbb aku yg bg kwn aku,eila kwn dgn awahd(pak arab)and mira dgn aziz tp diorg kwn biasa je,so saya pon salah gak dlm hal ne,coz sye suka lepak dgn kwn lama sye shifa.tak byk time sye spend dgn diorg smpi diorg bengang ckap'kami dok tunggu hg tp hg tak mai pon'..dgr2 tu mmg rasa bersalah sgt..semua ne berpunca dr aku rupanya..tp mmg aku ada tak puas hati dgn kwn aku skit(nama tak yah la bgtau)tp aku ada mintak maaf kat diorg,lepas tu izzati ckap nak bubarkan geng kami,ne semua sbb aku je??heheh setan betul aku ne..so aku pon setuju,sbb aku ada benda lain tp tak elak bgtau kat sini,lgpun amanah..

Tp peliknya,aku kena extand sbb aku gagal 2 subject,aku kena ulang blik,subject mengira(accounting and investment)so time tu kwn aku smua dah last sem,nak ikutkan aku je extand,aku dok umah kwn lama aku,shifa kat tingkat 9,mase tu lagi parah,aku ada dgr dari pak gard,ckp bukan2 pasal kwn aku(mira n eila),so aku mcm tak layan la..aku pergi jmpa diorg,mase tu diorg ada lagi kat kL.diorg bgtau kata pak gard tu ckap bukan2 pasal aku..hu?giler ke apa??mmg bengang dibuatnya....lps tu pak arab pulak ckap bkn2 lagi,aku malas la dgr,klu tgk dgn mata aku bru percaya,so smpi la kwn aku tu smpai kena halau umah n tak ada umah nak duduk,time tu plk aku balik kampung.aku tak tau langsung...........smpai kwn aku(bdk junior)bgtau..something la..mcm tu la gaduhnya..smpai skrg...smpi parents mira nak jmpa aku,kata aku buat mulut..aku mmg tak suka la nak buat mulut..entah babi mn ckap aku yg kena..mmg mrh aku,sampai kwn baik aku(mira)nak tikam aku...........dia org smpi serang aku..aku btau yg benar..mmg salah faham,mse tu fiza ada kat situ..dia terus bgtau shifa(kwn lama yg baik smpi skrg)shifa mmg bengang,tepot lg satu..suka sgt sound org..heheh..bdk umah baru tu lain skit perangai.tp baik.....klu aku dpt jmpa mira n eila skrg aku nak sgt mintak maaf and aku tak nak gaduh2 da dgn diorg lagi.sbb diorg still kwn aku...tp mira dah mintak maaf dgn aku da..aku pon sama...eila je blom..izzati dgn aku tak gaduh,dia dgn aku gaduh okei balik..persahabatan kami setakat itu je..i still miss u all guys...DyLaZaRa

my childhood friend..

my childhood time..its diffrent story coz i not a cute gal like others gal..
coz im fat..and that makes no body like me..
but i still have friend in my tadika..
then in stadart one..
i have my best frend name nurain bt saiful ahmad..
she is really a good and kind,
her family also very nice people,her father always talk tamil with me..but her father is malay,he is really good in tamil.she is the one who always with me,she not like my other friend she is totally a diffrent gal..she is cute and genius,and also a good frend..i miss her a lot..
but one day,she and her famliy transfer to KL..erm in my standart six that time is UPSR time but i still can study with her coz she move after UPSR exam...until now i dont know her where she live..i hope that i can see her again..coz she was my really good frend in my childhood time.
i really wanna thanks to her coz friend with people like me in that time no body like me its because im fat n not cute.its 11 year left ready..but still didnt find her..

i miss her very much..

my life as a..

My life as a loser..i just hate that..coz i always a loser even in relationship.But now im not..coz i just start thinking im the winner and i have everthing in my life..i just love it,I wont give up,im strong and the best..now i realize that yes im right....our mind control everthing and be strong.

But now just a beginning for everthing..